dispatches, i. all these hands have got a hold on me

a poem by Josh Rosenthal

i. It wasn’t the summer I turned pretty (always have been) but it was the summer that I drove back and forth from my local AMC theater four times a week without fail and my car doesn’t do the whole CarPlay thing (or air conditioning sometimes, we all have our things) so I just listened to “Ordinary” on the radio over and over again and I realized that something had to change.

ii. Now I’m back in a walkable city and there’s no need to drive and I haven’t heard “Ordinary” once since; ergo, taken out of the ordinary.

iii. So even if my body hasn’t changed much, I do generally feel more eyes and hands on me these days, and I think it’s entirely because I graduated from college. Not sure what to do with this information yet.

iv. But because I’m doing grad school on the same campus that I was maybe supposed to leave behind for good several months ago, they made me clip a sign to my shirt that says “don’t worry, he still belongs here, it’s not weird at all.” 

v. There’s a September where I am doing something different somewhere else but I can’t imagine what that would look like and I don’t like thinking about things I can’t place in my current life.

vi. re: Splitsville, Kyle Marvin is Here and He is Funny.

vii. re: re: Splitsville, there has been literally nothing good out this month so I have to keep telling people they should see Splitsville with a completely straight face. You should see Splitsville.

viii. I have no interest in wrecking a home that I feel very comfortable in unless we go full-tilt psych thriller with it and I get a glorious third-act death where I fall out of a broken window and the glass cascades down around me like snow.

ix. Finished writing this while listening to “Buckingham Nicks” by, you guessed it, (Lindsey) Buckingham and (Stevie) Nicks. No clue if anyone has the requisite talent to pull off a feat like this at present, but can we get the ball rolling on this effort before the year is up? I think it would be a great bit and I’d be willing to put money towards R&D. 

x. I think this is making me happy, generally speaking. I am trying my best to be open these days. I learned who Parvati Shallow is. I have tickets to the new PTA next weekend - in VistaVision! I have to imagine this is right for me. Will report back if things change.